|Heero, what's the most difficult thing about adjusting to normal life? Or rather, what's normal for everyone else.|
I have an answer, but I don’t even know if it’s an answer that makes sense. What’s hard is how easy it was to turn part of my brain off. That part. The robot part. I guess it’s not so weird that that’s what Duo calls me because maybe that’s kind of what it’s like. Being a robot. You can turn those off and on. Not all of me is turned off, though. And robots aren’t exactly indestructable.
That was a joke. I think.
But every part of adjusting is hard because there’s so much that used to be in my head about what to do and where to be and how to do it, and now it feels empty. It feels like I don’t know how to do anything because everything I have to do isn’t urgent or life-threatening or even life-saving. I don’t like that I can’t learn how to do everything I need to know now, now. I have to be patient. And I have to let…Duo show me, sometimes.
I also don’t like knowing if I want to keep some of the empty parts in my head. I’m scared of thinking that maybe it’s okay to not know everything.