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Where The Spirits Dwell
Rocket, what happened at the Way Station? How weird is it, that you remember Blue's club, but Baby doesn't?
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The Way Station is just…where I ended up.  When I closed my eyes, Sweet Pea was still holding me and crying.  When I opened them, I was just…here.  What is it everyone says?  Everything was the Way Station and nothing hurt.  That’s kind of true, isn’t it?  Besides this, there’s just…desert, everywhere else, and that’s a whole lot of not anything.  And I don’t hurt, anymore.  Not stabbed hurt, at least.  Not bloody or anything.  There isn’t even a hole in my sweater or my leotard.

That’s probably worst part, you know.  Sitting in the desert in dancewear.  I thought, maybe, since I was dead, and all, that I’d have my…you know, my uniform?  With the little nurse hat?  And my guns.  Like in our dreams.  

I guess nothing really goes like you think it will, huh?

Did they hurt her so bad that she really won’t remember?  I don’t want to ask her about it.  I’m afraid to ask her, I don’t want to make her upset if she really can’t.  It’s the strangest thing, though.  How does she remember me? 

Rocket? What's your favorite memory with you and your sister?
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If I could make one up, I’d say that it was that one time she finally left me alone.  But that’s never happened.  She wouldn’t even let go of me when I died.  She followed me into a mental institution, for something she had nothing to do with.  So I don’t even…

Okay, once, when we were kids, there was this ice cream stand we used to hang out by.  One of the boys who worked the counter started refusing to serve me because he heard that I’d kissed his sister, a few times.  When I told Sweet Pea about it, she told me it was my fault for starting trouble, but the next time we were there, she socked the kid in the mouth and told him I could kiss whoever I wanted.  Then she hopped the counter and fixed me up a banana split.  I started fighting my own fights, after that, but I guess you could probably say she inspired me to.

Hey Donny, If you had a choice between taking out a clockwork nazi or a regular nazi which one would you take out? Rocket? Same question.
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Clockwork nazis?  What, like a fuckin’ machine?  If I wanted to wail on one’a those, I’d take a swing at my sister’s fancy-ass washin’ machine.  And prob’ly chip my bat, for all the good it did me.  Robots don’t bleed, sweetheart.  But, shit, I’munna take out both of ‘em so there’s no question of if I can or not.


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I don’t like my odds with either.  A man in a uniform is a man in a uniform, no matter what he’s made out of and I wouldn’t trust either to a fair fight.  But I’ll fight anything I need to fight, if it means getting what Babydoll…what we need to win.

They used to think there might actually be something wrong with me, you know. When they brought us in, I was practically comatose. Besides my name, I said maybe three things. But that doesn’t matter. None of it actually matters. The week after, they called me unmanageable and hysterical. Do you remember when they used to throw girls away, all the time, for hysteria? I don’t, either. You know how they “cured” it? Masturbation. Honest to God, I’m not shitting anyone when I say that doctors used to force their patients to get off and call the orgasm some kind of relief from the affliction. Sweet Pea didn’t like hearing it, either, when I told her. She thought it was even worse when I said I wished Dr. Gorski would try it on me.But it doesn’t happen anymore, that was back in the Victorian days. Which, I think, is when they built this place. So, maybe it remembers. It must. Because I can’t stop thinking about it, so something’s gotta be reminding me. I wouldn’t be surprised if it was this awful, old building and its awful, old memories.Tonight, the covers are pulled all the way up to my chin and, for once, it’s my sister who can’t figure out when to shut up. My eyes are squeezed so tightly, they might bleed, but I know if I say anything to her, she’ll just get upset again. So I pretend."They think I’m lying," she was snorting. Haughtily, of course. "They don’t know anything." She always knew more than everyone else. I rolled onto my side, away from her, and my eyes popped back open. They put the new girl in a bed across the way, a few down, from mine. She’s sitting, knees to her chest, maybe studying the threadcount on her sheet. Maybe she notices me watching because she looks up and her pretty, pink lips change shape. The difference is subtle and still full of sadness, but I think she’s trying to smile at me. I slip the hand that had previously been absently playing with my left breast past the waistband of my underwear."I know what they want me to say," Sweet Pea carried on. "They like it when I get teary-eyed. They just want me to talk about ‘who hurt me’."It had been months since I’d touched myself. For a while, there, I didn’t have to because Blondie seemed eager to do the work for me - so long as she was getting it, in return, too. But she hasn’t crawled into my bed - nor have I, into hers - in ages. Which suits me just fine, anyway, because I’ve never liked girls who get bossy while fucking."Like they don’t know they’re…Rocket?”I’ve been lazy, maybe, allowing someone else to help, but I haven’t lost my knack. Did the Victorian girls have the same luck? During “treatment”, the doctors were the ones masturbating them. They couldn’t even do it themselves. But things are different now. I’m making them different, even though I know there’s a pile of orderlies just outside the door - Blue and his goons - who’d probably love to drag me back in time and do to me the kinds of things that made me kill a man, once. No. I’m unmanagable."Rocket? I know you’re not sleeping."Yes, I am, I think, very hard, trying to drown out her voice and focus on the new girl. My new girl. Curling her toes into her mattress. Twirling the end of her soft, white-blond pigtails. Wetting those pretty, pink lips with the tip of her pretty, pink tongue. My hips twitch. I’ve hit a soft spot."Are you listening to me?"No. Shut up. I wouldn’t wish being interrupted by a sister on anyone. Grinding my teeth, I shove her further out of my ears, out of my thoughts. It’s only you and me, baby doll, I think towards the other row of beds. In my fervor, my hysteria, I think I might hear her exhale, which, in turn, gets a rise out of me, too. Despite chomping down on my bottom lip, a little groan escapes."Rocket?"It was a sleep murmur. I’m dreaming. Go to bed, Sweet Pea. Leave me alone. I hold my breath and not just because I’m starting to feel a dense warmth well up between my thighs."…Hope?" she whispers. When I continue to not answer her, I hear the creak of a metal frame and spring mattress arguing with each other while someone, on top of both, shifts. She’s given up.My eyes flutter, my heart beats faster. Adding a second, then third finger to the mission quickens the pace, but for a second, I think it might go away. Damn it. Ruined. I think of the hysterical girls who came before me, sleeping in the same beds, crying the same tears my new girl cried when they dragged her in. The sensation dissipates and I’m still furiously scrambling to get it back, but I know it’s hardly worth it, anymore.”Hope.” Startled, I look up, but my beautiful girl is lying down, now. Sleeping. Like I should be. The rest of the room comes rushing back and before I get a headache from all the other girls, from all their other noises, I see her lips part as another breath esacpes. It sounds the same as the ghost voice that didn’t say my name and, quickly, I gasp to draw her discarded air to me. I press on and - AAH - there it is. I contract, quiver, shudder, and sob. Thank you, baby doll.And when I close my eyes to sleep, she’s already waiting for me, in my dreams.

They used to think there might actually be something wrong with me, you know. When they brought us in, I was practically comatose. Besides my name, I said maybe three things. But that doesn’t matter. None of it actually matters. 

The week after, they called me unmanageable and hysterical. Do you remember when they used to throw girls away, all the time, for hysteria? I don’t, either. 

You know how they “cured” it? Masturbation. Honest to God, I’m not shitting anyone when I say that doctors used to force their patients to get off and call the orgasm some kind of relief from the affliction. Sweet Pea didn’t like hearing it, either, when I told her. She thought it was even worse when I said I wished Dr. Gorski would try it on me.

But it doesn’t happen anymore, that was back in the Victorian days. Which, I think, is when they built this place. So, maybe it remembers. It must. Because I can’t stop thinking about it, so something’s gotta be reminding me. I wouldn’t be surprised if it was this awful, old building and its awful, old memories.

Tonight, the covers are pulled all the way up to my chin and, for once, it’s my sister who can’t figure out when to shut up. My eyes are squeezed so tightly, they might bleed, but I know if I say anything to her, she’ll just get upset again. So I pretend.

"They think I’m lying," she was snorting. Haughtily, of course. "They don’t know anything." She always knew more than everyone else. 

I rolled onto my side, away from her, and my eyes popped back open. They put the new girl in a bed across the way, a few down, from mine. She’s sitting, knees to her chest, maybe studying the threadcount on her sheet. Maybe she notices me watching because she looks up and her pretty, pink lips change shape. The difference is subtle and still full of sadness, but I think she’s trying to smile at me. I slip the hand that had previously been absently playing with my left breast past the waistband of my underwear.

"I know what they want me to say," Sweet Pea carried on. "They like it when I get teary-eyed. They just want me to talk about ‘who hurt me’."

It had been months since I’d touched myself. For a while, there, I didn’t have to because Blondie seemed eager to do the work for me - so long as she was getting it, in return, too. But she hasn’t crawled into my bed - nor have I, into hers - in ages. Which suits me just fine, anyway, because I’ve never liked girls who get bossy while fucking.

"Like they don’t know they’re…Rocket?”

I’ve been lazy, maybe, allowing someone else to help, but I haven’t lost my knack. Did the Victorian girls have the same luck? During “treatment”, the doctors were the ones masturbating them. They couldn’t even do it themselves. But things are different now. I’m making them different, even though I know there’s a pile of orderlies just outside the door - Blue and his goons - who’d probably love to drag me back in time and do to me the kinds of things that made me kill a man, once. No. I’m unmanagable.

"Rocket? I know you’re not sleeping."

Yes, I am, I think, very hard, trying to drown out her voice and focus on the new girl. My new girl. Curling her toes into her mattress. Twirling the end of her soft, white-blond pigtails. Wetting those pretty, pink lips with the tip of her pretty, pink tongue. My hips twitch. I’ve hit a soft spot.

"Are you listening to me?"

No. Shut up. I wouldn’t wish being interrupted by a sister on anyone. Grinding my teeth, I shove her further out of my ears, out of my thoughts. It’s only you and me, baby doll, I think towards the other row of beds. In my fervor, my hysteria, I think I might hear her exhale, which, in turn, gets a rise out of me, too. Despite chomping down on my bottom lip, a little groan escapes.

"Rocket?"

It was a sleep murmur. I’m dreaming. Go to bed, Sweet Pea. Leave me alone. I hold my breath and not just because I’m starting to feel a dense warmth well up between my thighs.

"…Hope?" she whispers. When I continue to not answer her, I hear the creak of a metal frame and spring mattress arguing with each other while someone, on top of both, shifts. She’s given up.

My eyes flutter, my heart beats faster. Adding a second, then third finger to the mission quickens the pace, but for a second, I think it might go away. Damn it. Ruined. I think of the hysterical girls who came before me, sleeping in the same beds, crying the same tears my new girl cried when they dragged her in. The sensation dissipates and I’m still furiously scrambling to get it back, but I know it’s hardly worth it, anymore.

Hope.” Startled, I look up, but my beautiful girl is lying down, now. Sleeping. Like I should be. The rest of the room comes rushing back and before I get a headache from all the other girls, from all their other noises, I see her lips part as another breath esacpes. It sounds the same as the ghost voice that didn’t say my name and, quickly, I gasp to draw her discarded air to me. I press on and - AAH - there it is. I contract, quiver, shudder, and sob. Thank you, baby doll.

And when I close my eyes to sleep, she’s already waiting for me, in my dreams.

I tried being a ghost but my Baby Doll wasn’t home.  So I went to wait for her Somewhere Else.

I tried being a ghost but my Baby Doll wasn’t home.  So I went to wait for her Somewhere Else.